Tonight's The Night

Once again while we sleep tonight a judge in Ethiopia will be looking over our case; determining if everything is approved for us to legally adopt our son. We are praying that the paperwork needed by the judge on the last court date is there, correctly filled out and that there won't be anything else required.

I am learning a lot through this process of waiting. I'm realizing just how selfish I am in wanting this to work out the way I think it should. Who am I to expect it to. This was God's plan from the beginning and who am I to think there are any flaws in it. Each "bump" or "delay" along the way has been placed there for a reason and each one will bring Glory to Him.

I'm learning what it means to have true patience and real hope. Not just the wishful thinking kind of hope but the hope that's rooted in the promises of God. I'm learning to fully rely on Him when I feel discouraged and disappointed. He is always there waiting to bring peace and comfort. I'm learning to see Him in new ways, as a Father, that I haven't been able to before.

"Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

But those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:28-31


It hasn't been easy but I am thankful for everything that has happened on this journey to start our family. Tonight I'll be praying for God's will to be done and if that means we don't pass, there's another blessing in the reason why, waiting to be revealed.